27 Weeks

Week five I bled 
Progesterone they said 
Week six I was sick 
It will be over quick 
HG was extreme 
I wished it was all a dream 
Vomiting ten plus times a day 
In bed I lay  

When we found out you were twins
Our families had the biggest grins 
Me and your Daddy where so excited 
We couldn’t wait to be united 

Week twelve ended in hospital dehydrated 
Where I had almost collapsed and fainted 
Six intravenous drips later 
Had me feeling a little bit greater 

Week fifteen was a long wild ride
The unknown scans and tears we cried 
Poole, Southampton, St.George’s too
Where we’d meet the whole Fetal medicine crew 
TTTS stage one to stage three 
Who knew we’d need such a degree 
My pregnancy risk was extremely high
We thought we might have to say goodbye
Just get to week sixteen to have an operation
Wow that’s a crazy laser ablation 

Week sixteen definitely took a big toll
But you succeeded and passed your goal
Friday Southampton scan was good,
Monday St George’s wait another week we could 
This is the week we found out you are girls 
I did pray you’d get your daddy’s brown curls 
Each long day that did pass
Mummy wished it away so fast 
Just so you girls would get stronger and  bigger 
Dreaming of you both bouncing around like tigger
The all day sickness was still so real
It really was a massive ordeal

Week seventeen smells were insane 
I wish everything could go away down the drain  
Blankets over my nose during hospital visits 
Counting down the hours until they became minutes 
Walking back into that small consultation room
Not ever knowing if conversation would turn to gloom 
But NO, Your brave you are two little fighters 
Who defied all odds and did all-nighters 
Kicking your mummy in her sore painful tummy
Sometimes it was just so funny
Crunching on bottles of freezing cold ice 
Or just a bowl of extremely plain rice 

Week eighteen your still both so small 
But it was time for the professor to make the call
Mummy was so definitely scared 
She felt extremely lost and underprepared 
But this is what we had been preparing for 
Even if we didn’t quite know what was in store 
An injection straight in my back called a spinal
4 attempts it took for it to become final
Next came a crazy long thin laser 
And a worrying sense of impending danger 
Straight through my tummy to my placenta 
Not quite what was on my agenda 
Surgery was done back to front 
Because of how my placenta laid in my bump 
We had a scan after 6 hours 
You showed us you both had super powers 
Both laid there strongly kicking 
As the ultrasound tech finished clicking 

Week nineteen to twenty four 

I sat at home and waited,
 not even answering the door 
These weeks went by slow
But we were waiting for you to grow
Sickness finally started to ease 
A massive steak and chips please 
Acid reflux had begun 
I thought the pain was almost done 

Week twenty three oh so fun 
Waiting for some normality in the sun 
But You both had high blood flow 
Taps wasn’t diagnosed cause that’s one low 
Should we wait or should we go 
Back to hospital with our bags In tow 

Week Twenty four was the safe spot 
Even if you were still just a small dot 
The hospital could try save you 
Even if it meant months in NICU 
Mummy was now so happy 
Preparing everything even a nappy 

Weeks twenty five to twenty six 
Everything looked like it had begun to fix 
Until they noticed your fluid had reduced 
How could we give you such a boost 
Should we come in for another scan 
Consultant says no that’s not the plan 

Week twenty seven 
The one that sent you both to heaven 
Your movement had begun to slow 
It’s a mothers instinct just so you know 
A trip to Poole maternity 
Felt like an eternity 
Multiple scans and Fetal heart traces
Meant we got to see your beautiful faces 
A trip to Southampton later that night 
We didn’t know you were having to fight 
Just pumping blood to try and stay alive 
How that all changed the next day at five 
2 hours it took to give us the news 
Oh how it felt like a massive bruise 
Our sweet Amelia hadn’t been given a chance 
We knew she was in heaven having a dance 
This is when I asked for a c section 
I didn’t know the consultant would have such an objection 
To save your identical twin sister 
Aria came out without even a whimper 
Fighting strong with almost no blood 
The tears we cried could have started a flood 
Watching our sweet Aria slipping away 
To be with her sister In heaven later that next day 

Our hearts are shattered and oh so broken 
Not even one tiny word was spoken
We are reminded that the only positive thing
Is that you are up there celebrating with our king 

Heaven is such a holy great place 
We just wish we could see your beautiful face
To have and to hold you in your baby wraps 
Not to be taken by that thing called TAPS.

Written By Anna Wade